In her book Cultivating A Heart of Prayer, Wendy Blight talks about a quote from Sylvia Gunter: “Prayers is radically and gloriously encountering God, knowing Him better, loving Him more.” What does this quote mean to you? What does it look like in terms of you and your prayer life?
This quote really cause me to stop and think a little more about my attitude toward prayer and also my need to improve my prayer life. Prayer is something far greater and better than asking God for my needs or even the needs of others in this world. Prayer is meant to be a true and pure fellowship with my Father, the God of all creation. When I think about how great God is and think that this great God would choose to die for someone like me and not just that, but that He truly wants to fellowship with me, why would I shrink back from that? How awesome that God would choose to allow me to call Him my Father! Just the thought of that gives me pause. What is my view of a “father”?
I used to have a hard time with the term “father”, because I didn’t know what a real father looked like. I had an errant human vision of what my little girl brain thought, but that was so much below whom God is. I’ve not had many good male role models in my life. About the only good example was my grandpa. I think that is one great disservice that men do to girls. An abusive male can really damage a women’s psyche.
It took a number of years for me to realize that my image was affecting my view of God. Yet, over time I’ve gotten a glimpse of Him. Oh, how glorious just that glimpse has been. I desire to see Him better, to really KNOW Him and to love Him more. I’ll never obtain to His level of love while I walk in this body of flesh, yet I shall continue to strive toward Him. I know, beyond a doubt, that as I seek Him, I shall find Him; for that is His desire and the reason He sent His Son, Jesus, to die for me. And also because He has promised that those who seek Him shall find Him. Sometimes my heart just aches to draw closer to this God who loves me. Other times, I remain distant from Him. Sometimes, I think I take Him for granted, much like a child does a parent. But I want more! I want the mature relationship of a heavenly love. I want to go to that place when He leads me into quietness and rest in Him. This Scripture from Jeremiah 6 :17 says something troubling – This is what the Lord says: “Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls. But you said, ‘We will not walk in it.’
I do not want to be one of those who refuse to walk in God, my Father’s, rest and peace. I shall seek His face. Join me on this journey.
Heavenly Father, I praise and worship You only. You are Almighty God, the creator of heaven and earth. You have made me to worship You and bring You praise and glory. Help me LORD, to see You more clearly. Show me how to clearly hear Your voice as you speak to my spirit. Lead me to quietness of soul and spirit. Help me to love and serve You better. May my whole body and soul and spirit be completely Yours. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen!